I can't seem to let anything go with this one specific person, and I already know the only person I'm hurting is myself. They probably have no idea I even feel this way. And I'm not confrontational enough to let them know.. So I'm at an impasse. Worst part though? I don't want to forgive them. It's like I like having this person to be mad at. All the time. Like a stress release. I need a new hobby.
By the way, people who read WAY too much into things.. I am NOT talking about Jeff.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to give away specifics because even though a lot of people know who I'm talking about, I don't want this getting back to them either. I just hate the spot I'm in right now. Why is it so easy to dislike a person so much?? Why is it that even a normal thing that this person does now is so infuriating that I can't even look at them without getting upset? How does it get this bad? And under any other circumstances, I probably wouldn't mind them so much. But then I wouldn't be me, and they wouldn't be them. And those are two definite's that can't be altered. No matter how I wish I could change them, maybe I should focus on changing myself first. Once I master that feat, I'm sure I'll be a lot easier on this person. Because right now, nothing they do is right. Nothing they say is intelligent. Nothing they are is beautiful. And that is NOT the right way to view someone. I need to be more accepting, but I feel personally attacked every time this person talks to me.
I need some help people. How do I forgive them for.. being them?
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