Computer screen

I don't know if I can do this anymore. Journaling online is great sometimes because it allows me to get my thoughts out and get feedback from someone not inside my own head. But then at other times, it sucks because I can't be mad about anything. I love writing, but I think it's time to invest in one of two things; either a personal journal that I will never use or a mentor that I will never talk to. Thoughts? 


A little sarcastic, yes. But I can't help myself. How am I supposed to be real when the things that really bother me are a taboo subject all of the sudden simply because I'm me? I think my problem is that I've pushed myself out of my comfort zone. In an attempt to receive guidance and instruction, I've opened myself up to too many people. For those of you who don't know me very well... I'm not an open person. This blog was an attempt to 'fix' that about myself. And now I'm second guessing it. 


Being more 'outgoing' was only one of many reasons for starting to write again. I also thought I might be able to help girls my age who are struggling with the same issues I am. The ones that are too afraid to speak up themselves. I also thought maybe it would prepare me for this phantom book that I've always dreamed of writing one day. I love writing. But I might just stick to fiction. Reality is too real for me to share... for real. 


I don't know what my issue is right now, I just feel super exposed without being able to really share things because it might upset someone else. It's like I've locked myself in a glass cage that I don't want to be in anymore, except now there's only one way out. I think maybe I'll disappear for a while. Talk to a real person instead of my computer screen.